suddenly got the urge to blog. dont ask me why. "urge" is smth you can't explain(:

suddenly, so many things are running through in my mind while listening to the song i'm listening to now. the lyrics are damn meaningful to me. and this song is damn nice. let me find the lyrics and paste here. (hold on)
here it is,

"sorry... i am really sorry.
我又一次把你气哭在陌生街头
爱你... 我当然爱你
自从第一眼到现在什至没人敢预测的将来
请你相信不是我不愿意改变我自已
而是一再努力又一再放弃那个软弱的自已
其实我恨透了我自已
没有认输的勇气
让你受尽了不安和委屈
你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人
也是我这一生这一生唯一能让我安定下来的人
虽然我并没有并没有并没有一身温纯的灵魂
但是我很愿意很愿意做那个永远照顾你的人
我的爱人请听我有颗不善言语的心
只能够看着你远处的背影"

its 2am now and i'm still not turning in. and tmr still got to wake up at 12pm to watch my tv show which i missed it for 5 days ! finally there is a repeat time slot for tmr for 5 episodes. so, by crook or hook, i wont miss it anymore(: anyway, its a cable tv show. heehee.hmm, wondering once again, will i dream of you later on ? its so dilemma. there is "want" and "dont want" in my heart. hmm, i think, no one will really understand what i am talking esp you.
okay, i'm ending this "urging" post now. cause i got no idea what to post anymore and i off to get smth done. goodbye !