u left me fucking alone in this fucking place. why must you do this ? why cant you jus tell me tat you are leaving ? u din even tell me you are leaving lorhs ! i'm now fucking fucking alone here ! i'm so lonely without you here ! when then you will be back ? i miss you so much ! and, i need you ! i'm really fucking lonely ! u jus left me alone here without telling anything ! why didnt you tell me ?! why why why ? i want you !! i miss you so much !! everyday seems to be a terrible day for me ! used to be, wake up den receive your message den when turning in at night, will receive a good night message from you too. whole day will be messaging you. but, since the day u left in alone here, my phone hardly rings liao. when my phone rings, i'm praying tat the message was sent by you. but, when i look at my phone, the sender isnt you. =( i want you ! i really do ! sobs ! i wish all the message sender is you. but it isnt you ! do you know how sad i am when i see the sender isnt you ? do you know tat my eyes were wet one when i see the sender isnt you ? i'm so sad when i know the sender isnt you. seriously, my phone din ring for a long time lerhs. used to be keep ringing and ringing till i must put silent. now, i no need to put silent liao. cause i know tat i wont recieve any messages de. even if i receive, it will only be 1 or 2 per day. so, there isnt a need to put silent.

well, im sick now ! ystd, after watching the movie with basil they all, den i realise im having a fever. but den i din go hm yet. still, went to eat with them. den go hm around 8 plus. was damn damn cold when on the way home. its is like i'm freezing soon. hmmm, my body is like burning lorhs. it is damn hot. den when i reached home, i went to bathe. i bathe with the hot water. i adjust it to the hottest ! yet, it is still very cold to me ! when i bathe finish, i took my temperature. guess wad ? my temperature is 40.1 !! all my mind is "fuck fuck fuck ! so high !" was so bloody cold ! how much i wish you are there for me. hais ! now, im still having fever. lucly the temperature drop to 38.9 liao lerhs. phew. luckly it dropped ! hmm, i don have any intention to see any doctors k. i will jus let it be. recover or not is all the problem lerhs. i don care anymore. terrible den terrible larhs. hack care ! my parents told me to see, i oso donwan to see lorhs. seriously, i wont see any doctors de.

post another time. now very giddy ! bye !